Tired

I'm exhausted. Mentally, physically, emotionally exhausted. Thank god my mom is coming next weekend even if only for a couple days because I need my mom. Its been a LONG time since I have said that but at this point, I'm not even embarrassed to say it. This duty has put my body, mind, marriage and parenting skills to the test. I think I have lost just about every ounce of respect I had for any Marine serving out here. Screw this duty, screw this command. I just want one day off...one day thats it...I just want to go home on a nice long leave instead of not being able to leave the 150 mile radius...and god forbid someone falls deathly ill at home because they'll give you as few days off as they can and then tell you you are a piece of shit for taking that time to tend to a very ill immediate family member. I'm fed up. Doesn't exactly make it easier when your husband insists on deploying the second we leave here, so now we get 6-12 months MORE of not seeing him. I just want to scream and there is no where to do that.