So the anticipation of whether we are having a boy or girl is just killing us! Especially now that we are at a point where we could tell by an ultrasound! I have my 17 week appointment next week and they are going to give me the okay to schedule my ultrasound. I know I really need to wait until then because we really can't afford it with Nick's birthday coming up and the ball and everything.
I know a girl would be awesome but I am preparing myself that there is a very real possibility that this baby is a boy. But we went to the park the other day with our two boys and our neighbors son who is a little older than Nick and it was really cute to watch the three boys so I know our world will be perfect with another boy too!
But still...either way...the anxiety is killing us!!!
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Monday, September 13, 2010
Reality Setting In
I haven't posted in a while because things have been going relatively well! Leaving recruiting duty was the best day of our lives and we could finally return to a normal much less stressful life. We are now expecting our third baby and we are working through issues that we struggled with on recruiting but have faith we will get through them.
THe reality is starting in that Mike's Afghanistan deployment is looming in the spring. I have a horrible feeling about it. I dont know if its hormones or just normal pre-deployment fears but I am scared for him, I am scared for our family. I am at peace with being here with our three kids and going through the motions of every day life but what if he doesn't come home? How am I supposed to live without him? I can't talk to anyone about this because either no one wants to talk about his upcoming deployment at all or no one wants to believe that not coming back is a possibility. I think my husband jokingly telling our families before we left home from leave that this may be the last time they ever see him, hit me really hard. He thinks its funny...its not.
I am trying to hold it all together and I know in the end I will but its hard putting everything in Gods hands and praying that he will make it back alive and in one piece. I know it will all work out, it has to.
THe reality is starting in that Mike's Afghanistan deployment is looming in the spring. I have a horrible feeling about it. I dont know if its hormones or just normal pre-deployment fears but I am scared for him, I am scared for our family. I am at peace with being here with our three kids and going through the motions of every day life but what if he doesn't come home? How am I supposed to live without him? I can't talk to anyone about this because either no one wants to talk about his upcoming deployment at all or no one wants to believe that not coming back is a possibility. I think my husband jokingly telling our families before we left home from leave that this may be the last time they ever see him, hit me really hard. He thinks its funny...its not.
I am trying to hold it all together and I know in the end I will but its hard putting everything in Gods hands and praying that he will make it back alive and in one piece. I know it will all work out, it has to.
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