I haven't posted in a while because things have been going relatively well! Leaving recruiting duty was the best day of our lives and we could finally return to a normal much less stressful life. We are now expecting our third baby and we are working through issues that we struggled with on recruiting but have faith we will get through them.
THe reality is starting in that Mike's Afghanistan deployment is looming in the spring. I have a horrible feeling about it. I dont know if its hormones or just normal pre-deployment fears but I am scared for him, I am scared for our family. I am at peace with being here with our three kids and going through the motions of every day life but what if he doesn't come home? How am I supposed to live without him? I can't talk to anyone about this because either no one wants to talk about his upcoming deployment at all or no one wants to believe that not coming back is a possibility. I think my husband jokingly telling our families before we left home from leave that this may be the last time they ever see him, hit me really hard. He thinks its funny...its not.
I am trying to hold it all together and I know in the end I will but its hard putting everything in Gods hands and praying that he will make it back alive and in one piece. I know it will all work out, it has to.
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Linked here from another military family blog. Was intrigued by the title of your blog. This article touched me. Our family prays for all the military families. We've had family and friends over there. I've done two weddings for young couples where a week or two later the husband flew out to Iraq or Afgh. It is tough, and our thoughts are with you. And, thank you.
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