Working

So I have decided that once we get back to the fleet I have to work. It isn't so much for the extra money (which will be nice) but just something for my own good. I got my first real job at 16, I was a waitress with Mike's sister for about a week before we realized the the owner was really really shady. But with that experience I realized that I loved to work. After that I had a one day stint as a telemarketer again with Mike's sister and I hated that one day of work more than any day in my life..lol. After that my grandmother got me a job as a library assistant at her library. I was there for about a year and a half and loved it. It was quiet, peaceful and relaxing. In the middle of working at the library I also went to work for the single Marine and Sailor program on NAS Pensacola at the Liberty Center. So I was working 2 part time jobs plus going to school...again...I LOVED it. The sense of accomplishment, the pride in being a working individual and seeing my own money roll into the bank...it was awesome. After getting married I did work a little at Blockbuster, the Navy Exchange when Mike was on his unaccompanied tour and Semper Fit. After having Nick I just thought it would be best to stay home with him. Then coming out on recruiting duty with such irregular hours for Mike and then another baby, again I thought it was best.

But in the past year I have learned that being a stay at home mom isn't always the best option for everyone. I love my children dearly but I never get the chance to miss them or really appreciate them for the two bundles of joy they really are because I am tired, ready to go to the bathroom by myself, ready to be able to sit and eat a lunch all at once. I used to think that I was a bad mom for thinking like that. But then I realized I am not, its just the way I feel. I feel a horrible burden on my family for me not working in the financial sense. I went from making my own money, doing everything on my own to completely depending on Mike. That is just not who I am. My kids are going to love me even if I am a working mom.

Out here I really do not have a way to work due to Mike's schedule and me finishing school but once we hit the fleet...I'll be on the lookout for that perfect opportunity. Sometimes being the best mom you can be isn't about staying home and waiting on their every want and need...sometimes its putting yourself out there and doing what is best for you that will in turn trickle down and be whats best for my kids.